Maybe...

Maybe it's cause I'm emotional....
Maybe it's cause I've finally realized it...
Maybe it's cause my walls are coming down...
Maybe it's cause I promised God...
Maybe it's cause it's time...
Or
Maybe it's just cause.

Regardless, it's happening.

Today I realized that my life will not be predictable again for a while. It used to be. I used to have a home that I didn't have to pay rent for, I used to know who was going to be at my house, and when they were going to be there. I used to come home and know that my family wanted me there.
But it's different now.

When you move out, life changes. But apparently, it doesn't hit you 'til a month later.
Since I've moved out, or since last year actually, I've become a horrible friend, a person who doesn't know her place in this world and someone without a home.

Then I realized something else...
Jesus is home.

Not because there's no one else, not because it's convenient, and not because I know he has to be.

It's because He is the only on I want to be home.

A home isn't somewhere you live or where you've put down roots. A home is a place where you know that you are always loved, accepted, cherished, and wanted. That's why HE is my home. I never, ever have to question those things with Him. Yet, everyday we do.

Our security, our trust, our hope...

We tend to put those in the world we live in, when we're not focused on Him.

But none of those things are possible without Him.





And ANOTHER thing.



Forgiveness is not trust.
Forgiveness is something that we need to do, because God has told us to do so.

Matthew 18:21-22

Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, "Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother when he sins against me? Up to seven times?
Jesus answered, "I tell you , not seven times, but seventy-seven times."



THAT ^ my friends, is forgiveness.

But forgiveness and trust do not go hand in hand.
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To be able to trust, you have to take a few risks and see how they respond.

are you willing to take a risk? are you willing to forgive? or do you just need Jesus to give you that desire?

Just COMMUNICATE ALREADY!

One of the hardest things for me to handle is when people don't communicate. I am in no way, shape or form saying that I am awesome at communicating, but i know how important it is and why we need to do it. God did not give us a mouth just for eating, i'm pretty sure he wanted us to talk too! One thing that God has been teaching me through this Bible study book called Be Transformed, is that it is so incredibly crucial to know and understand yourself so you can better help the people around you know and understand you. When you know what your beliefs are you are better able to see how you came to that conclusion, and how to change your belief if need be. Not only that, but you're also opening up the door to God and asking him to show you the truth to that specific thing.

Communication with God is something that is super incredibly needed. He tells us multiple times in his word how he WANTS and DESIRES us to pray and talk to him. We do that because it is what he has asked us to do and it's helpful for us. There are so many people that i know that keep things bottled inside and don't just let it out. It's so hard to know what to do around those type of people because you know that something is going on but if they aren't telling you then you can't do much. and you know what, 55% of all communication is non-verbal. So when you think you're getting away with lying to someone, or keeping something from them, you're really not. All you're doing is hurting your relationship with them and you're hurting yourself.

If for some reason, you really don't want to communicate with people, then at least talk to God. Cause he'll listen and be understanding. People aren't always like that. Actually, most of the time they're not. But God is. He desires you to talk to him. So just start to communicate!

Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus. 1 Thes. 5:16-18