Help

Asking for help is not my strong suit. 

Some of my friends have the same problem.

The funny thing is, I WANT to help. 

I want to be that person that other people know they can depend on. 

Well, I kinda am. Some more than others. 

But generally, they know I'm there. 

They know I'll drop everything if they need me. 

That's just who I am. 

Oddly enough, I don't know how to ask. 

What I figured out today is that asking is taking a risk. 

It's got to be without expectation. 

So you don't get disappointed. 

But honestly,

I have no clue how to do that. 

Think about it. 

When asking a question, 

you expect an answer. 

I'm a question asker. 

Just not a help asker.

Ha. I'm funny. 

Anyways, 

question asking is easy.

You usually get an answer when you ask a question. 

You all know that, it's not rocket science. 

But when asking for help, 

you have to go into expecting nothing. 

Less disappointed that way. 

But it sure does show you who you're real friends are.

Unfortunately, those people that you think are going to help you, won't. It's hard not to become bitter towards those closest to you when they can't give you what you think you need. Most of the time people surprise. It's the last person that you can possibly think of that is willing to help, and the first that doesn't seem to care. 

CARING

That's another one I'm havin a hard time with...

So many people show they care in so many different ways. 

I'm that person that if you tell you care, I believe you, unless you show me differently. 

But there are people who just care without saying anything. 

Which I can see, but I'm a verbal person. I like to hear you say it AND show it. 

Call me crazy. 

But really, look around you. 

Who do you know cares about you?

How do you know that they do?

One of my friends told me recently that most people don't cater to how you need to be loved and cared for. It's true. 

Most people don't take the time to show you how they care. 

Even if they care a lot. 

I want to encourage you to ask people how they want to be shown that you care. 

Then strive to do that. So they know.

I also want to encourage you to ask for help without expectation. 

I don't know how to do it either, but we're in this together. 

Let me know how it goes :)