It Began With a Question and Ended With a Truth

Why do I write?

Writing has never been an identity for me. We all have talents and abilities that we place our identity in. For some, it's their music. For others, it's their art. And still others, it's being smart. Like I said, writing has never been an identity for me. Actually, through junior high, high school and even a year of college, my identity was more in sports. Granted, I would strive for my identity to be in Christ. But that's a project I'm still working on. No, no, no, writing has never been something that claim to be excellent at. In fact, while I feel like words are my strong point at times, I also think that I can't use them as effectively as I intend to most of the time.

I write because it's a release. It is a way for me to say how I feel poetically, honestly and genuinely. It helps me to process life. Life is tough. Way tougher than I expected. Sometimes I wonder why someone didn't worn me about it. Then I realize, that so many did.

Today, in church, we talked about God's dream-life for you. It's the idea that God has this awesome dream-life for you and we don't tap into it. As Palmer shaped the message, he stated that we tend to settle for things, when God has something better for us. How often I tell that to people. But how often do I believe it for myself?

I graduate on Friday. I will officially be done with college. I can't believe it. I have been in school for the past like 18 years. It's all I've known for so long. And it's over. I will probably go back for my Masters, but for now it's over. It's exciting and I'm so glad to be done. But on the same note, I just don't know what to do with myself. Life continues. Things go on. But I'm not the same.

And for some reason, I don't think that God's dream-life for me will actually happen. It could...sometime down the road. But for now, it's gonna suck. The job I will have to get because I have to make enough money to support myself, is not going to be good. It won't be what I believe my purpose is. All of things though, are lies. They are lies that the enemy has implanted in my head. What the heck am I doing believing them?!?

The TRUTH is that God DOES have an AWESOME plan for my life. He just hasn't shared it with me yet. I was talking to my brother yesterday, and he was saying that God doesn't share too much with us, because he knows we'll get overwhelmed by that information. He's reading a ton of books, recently. And it was so kewl to hear that. God hasn't shared his plan with me yet, because he knows me really, really well. He knows I'll get overwhelmed. This moment in life is about trusting him completely and fully. He wants the trust in every area of my life.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart
    and lean not on your own understanding;

in all your ways submit to him,
    and he will make your paths straight.

Proverbs 3:5-6

Mary knew that God had great plans for her life, but not until the angel, Gabriel, told her. She waited, and God showed her. She trusted and willingly obeyed. 

Be encouraged, friends, he has a plan for YOU!