Maybe...

Maybe it's cause I'm emotional....
Maybe it's cause I've finally realized it...
Maybe it's cause my walls are coming down...
Maybe it's cause I promised God...
Maybe it's cause it's time...
Or
Maybe it's just cause.

Regardless, it's happening.

Today I realized that my life will not be predictable again for a while. It used to be. I used to have a home that I didn't have to pay rent for, I used to know who was going to be at my house, and when they were going to be there. I used to come home and know that my family wanted me there.
But it's different now.

When you move out, life changes. But apparently, it doesn't hit you 'til a month later.
Since I've moved out, or since last year actually, I've become a horrible friend, a person who doesn't know her place in this world and someone without a home.

Then I realized something else...
Jesus is home.

Not because there's no one else, not because it's convenient, and not because I know he has to be.

It's because He is the only on I want to be home.

A home isn't somewhere you live or where you've put down roots. A home is a place where you know that you are always loved, accepted, cherished, and wanted. That's why HE is my home. I never, ever have to question those things with Him. Yet, everyday we do.

Our security, our trust, our hope...

We tend to put those in the world we live in, when we're not focused on Him.

But none of those things are possible without Him.





And ANOTHER thing.



Forgiveness is not trust.
Forgiveness is something that we need to do, because God has told us to do so.

Matthew 18:21-22

Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, "Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother when he sins against me? Up to seven times?
Jesus answered, "I tell you , not seven times, but seventy-seven times."



THAT ^ my friends, is forgiveness.

But forgiveness and trust do not go hand in hand.
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To be able to trust, you have to take a few risks and see how they respond.

are you willing to take a risk? are you willing to forgive? or do you just need Jesus to give you that desire?